I Feel....

All alone in this unknown woods,
With no one but solitude as my soul companion.....
Sometimes the darkness engulfs the path
and I have no one to hold my arm.......

Here comes the roaring sea to unleash its fury and sink me in...
I am rowing but the island is nowhere to be seen....
Wish some one comes along, kisses my forehead and gives a hug
Coz sometimes these things shut down all the tensions and make one calm!!!


Well, you may have understood that I am having tryst with problems in my life....don't wanna go into the detailing....but whenever the problems come they have a "beautiful" habit of arriving in groups!!!(Better than humans, as they have got unity amongst themselves).

For the time being, I just want to sleep in my mom's lap coz that a therapy thats makes every commoner's mind to hibernate and forget that a word named "stress" exist in his life!! But the problem is Maa is FAR FAR AWAY.....................

The most awaited call….I received….thank you god…

Finally it’s the d day – wow!

I was waiting to get this call from this commoner.

The call went like this:

My ringtone: If I got down on my knees just to be with you, if I crossed a million oceans just to…..

Mishti: Haanji……(busy talking with people in office(least to mention their names))..lollzz

Commoner: Mishtu…job lag gayi

Mishti: Huh……surprised and amazed….not able to believe my ears

Commoner: Haanji….will receive a mail within next 15 minutes from them, fir batata hun

Mishti: Wow…sachi..Wow…(disconnected the call with a smile on my face)

Well the two people around me in the office were still looking at me to find out the reason for this smile…but I cant tell them..coz I don’t want to reveal this fact…as I am busy flirting these dayzz….:P

Okie….now this post is dedicated to the fact that this commoner got a job…..thats something really great to say and hear….wow…
Sorry, lemme get out of this thing….

Why is this news so important for me?

Well there are a lot of things I wanted to purchase, now that he has got the job…meri to chaandi hi chaandi hai yaar…….

Naanushhh…yaar I still ENVY that ENVY dress…both mast hai wo…:P, then there is a beautiful tunic at Westside…..mast hai yaar wo bhi…..

Don’t forget my chocolates……and yes my red roses…..I just love red roses…but tum humesha dena bhool jaate ho….. :P
Laalach karna buri bala hai..so I am also happy because ab ye “BEROZGAR” nahin raha….tensions khatam ho gayi …..dad Kolkata ni bulayenge isse ab and that means we will have a lot more time to spend together…..wow !wow !wow !

Now its party time…to chalo fir c ya people around sometime later…..shopping time will start once he gets his paycheque……maja aai gava yaar…..
But before I sign out, lemme do something really important…..
I would like to thank God and secondly I apologize to him for being a such a brat that I even fought with you and stopped praying….but bhagwan ji ek baat to batao….kal hi aapse ladai kari, aaj hi aapne job lagva di…kyun jee….mujhe ladte hue dekhne mein maja aata hai kya aapko….

Bade wala shoolllyyyyyyy bhagwan ji…..and bade wala thanku bhi….love you loads…and I had, I have and I will always have faith in you…….

Luv,

Mishti

A SIGH OF RELIEF

30.04.2010(today's date), If we add the numbers comes out to be 3+4+2+1=10, which is again 1+0=1....Is 1 my lucky number, if yes, I dint have the faintest idea all these 23yrs....and am not doing Numerology(wish I knew that....would have made some money selling these numbers to those fools who are firm believer of all these bulls**t)
But, something really fell in place today, something clicked today

For, today marked the striking out of all the CONFUSIONS AND DILEMMAS (refer earlier post), despair, depressions, shattering confidence, creeping doubts over one's ability, crushing ego, unanswered prayers, uncertain future, silent sobs and what not(ran out of more horrifying adjectives :P),my never ending wait seems to have ended at last. "TRING TRING" went my cell and upon hearing the words- "CONGRATULATIONS YOU ARE SELECTED", a sigh of relief was felt by the person who had forgotten the meaning of being relieved!! I know .......is not a dream start but now I have a step to place my foot on and now I can again feel the confidence fluid being injected in my veins.....which is providing me the courage and long forgotten belief in my abilities to climb one step after another and to reach the sky and fly on the wings of my dreams......YES.....I AM DREAMING AGAIN!!!

Just before donning the professional hat of the working man and tearing apart the tag of "unemployed", I would like to thank all those people without whose undaunting support I wouldnt have survived the vigorous storm(like every other actor thanks before accepting his/her award....the award in question is that of employment...more prestigious to me than the oscars):

THANK YOU TO:

------- Johny Bhaiya for literally being with me always...it was impossible for this lone soul to battle against the fury!!

------- Prithvi Da for forwarding innumerable mails and referring my CV to each and every contacts you have and not to forget the support and guidance you always provided!!

------- Baba for being patient for such a loooooooooooooooong time, I understand your condition and hope that I fulfill your wishes and bring smile to your face!!

------- Maa for everything..........

------- Choti Bahu & party, for praying for me, wont forget you....may god bless you :)

------- Sibu for giving me the motivational call when I needed the most!!

------- Mishti for again everything......(hope wont have to empty your purse to support your 'worthless' BF anymore)!!

------- Many of my relatives including Boro Mamu, Tumpi Di who tried their best......to get me a job!!

------- My delhi friends Mali for all your sincere efforts ;) Webby for standing beside your DA, Richi for being a cute sis!!

------- And Thank you soooooo much GOD...been angry with you, dejected with you, cried in front of you, pleaded before you...thanks for hearing me out and thanks for blessing me.........THANK YOU SOOOO SOOOO MUCH!!


Sorry if I havent mentioned anyone.....but seriously I thank you all.....

Here comes the rain.....washing all the tensions down......cooling off.....bringing respite from the unbearable heat......and I wanna get drenched to my bones with my eyes closed.....and rediscover the feeling of being relieved!!!!! SO am offffffff....................................

WiTh LoVe FrOm MISHTI.........

Long back I was asked to write as a guest for this blog, but due to my lethargic nature I never made any efforts to pen down anything, or it should be type down anything. Sorry for the bad PJ, but you will have to bear a few of these throughout this post.

Oops….. I forgot to introduce myself. I am being referred to as MISHTI in earlier posts. I have been following this blog for long, but then I don’t know what happened to the writer that he stopped blogging. May be one of the major reasons is that I came to Delhi, that turned his idle time into a hectic schedule of picking and taking me to places I wanted to visit and then again dropping me back to my place. This indulged a lot of time and money obviously for him not for me.

Now that I am asked to type down something for the blog, I would like to discuss how we faced two completely different emotions when I came to Delhi.

We shared a long distance relationship for past 2 and half years and unlike others we had the most beautiful relationship. We used to talk about every little thing when we are miles apart. But then came 15^th June, 2009, I came to Delhi, took admission in the same college and became his junior. As you all must be thinking now that we would have had the best times ever studying in the same college, it was all so different. A couple, who was admired by friends for their understanding relationship earlier, was found fighting over small issues.

Reasons for the same were that, earlier we used to live in our very own ways and since we were miles apart we used to share everything on phone but when we came near I used to think that everything is in front of his eyes and so why do I need to repeat everything whereas he missed his earlier Mishti. I used to take up fights with him and he used to try his hard to stop those fights. Second thing was that I am person who loves being in groups and he wanted me to spent some good time with him, which again was a problem with me, another reason to take up a fight. There were times when both of us were so irritated with all these that sometimes I used to think whether it will be possible for us to stay together or not, for our whole life. I remember, the person I always felt was the most compatible person for me, I called him incompatible.

But then we discussed all this, we found out what was wrong with us. I guess he no more misses his old Mishti as now I am with him for ever. I realized this thing when his dad asked him to come back to Kolkata for job. At that time I felt so alone, I felt I am loosing something very close and loosing my “PICK AND DROP SERVICE”. Sorry for one more PJ naanush… [: P]

So for all those who are in love, do keep in mind that talking things out is something which is really important for a relationship to survive. For those who are in relationship just for the sake of flirting never sit and discuss things because then you might end up in staying with a person you were just flirting with….fir ye mat bolna k kahan aake phass gaya…sorry for the PJ. [: P]

Now let’s ask this Commoner to get back and start blogging, because these days he is having a very tough time and a person going through all this can write the best…there goes mera ek aur PJ…..sachi PJ mare iss blog mein to maine….lollzzz…

Luv,

Mishti